Day 93: July 2, 2024

Today is Day 40 of Living Alcohol-Free!!! 🎉😊🌱 I should probably celebrate this milestone. It's so easy to brush it off, but I'm realizing that is a symptom of not valuing myself and my progress. So yay me! 🥳

It's amazing to think it's already been 40 days since going Alcohol-Free. For sure I'm sleeping better and I have been doing a lot more creative work. Now this journey is about choosing the quality of my problems.

I am definitely more aware of other areas in my life I need to work on that weren't magically fixed when I stopped drinking. But overall things are still way better, and I have the capacity to deal with these more subtle issues like time management!

Many of my beliefs have shifted around alcohol, but there are still subtle ways I am trying to escape my life. For example, I don't feel like drinking now, but I do feel a lot of resistance around getting on a regular sleep schedule. I am avoiding my responsibilities by staying up late every night. This is one of the areas I will have to do some work on... Time management! It sounds silly, but it's been a big problem.

I know staying up late (and thus sleeping in) is making things hard for me and my husband. It also screws up my working schedule the next day. I am really frustrated. It would probably be helpful for me to evaluate my beliefs around staying up late and then working to dissect and replace them with more realistic, healthier beliefs over time.

MY BELIEFS — LATE NIGHTS (To Be Examined):

Late nights are reserved for "me time". I enjoy reading at night. I get a lot of creative work done at night. I look forward to the peace and quiet.

There is actually a lot of cognitive dissonance around staying up late, because in general I think society looks down on night-owls. Sleeping in is seen as laziness. Nonetheless, sitting up late with my husband Paul has become a tradition of sorts, a type of bonding that I am hesitant to give up.

I identify as a night owl. I tell myself I am not organized enough to have a regular schedule. I think I am lazy. Staying up late seems like the only way I get things done because I tell myself that I am a procrastinator, and that chaos in life is mandatory.

AF Days Since May 23, 2024: 40

My Why: To have freedom from addictions, to create more space in my life, to honor my body / mind / spirit, to feel vibrant and empowered in my daily life, and to make my corner of the world a better, more peaceful, more loving & more beautiful place.

What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink?

I could try another alcohol-free beverage at dinner, the Raspberry Goes by Bravus! It's a light and summery AF beer, akin to a sour.

Daily Affirmations:
1) I choose to live Alcohol-Free.
2) I respect and honor myself.
3) I am worthy of love and care.
4) I give myself patience to heal.
5) I maintain healthy boundaries.
6) I have compassion for others.
7) I create beauty all around me.