Day 92: July 1, 2024
What are My Thoughts Today?
Initially I didn't think boredom was a factor in my drinking (I am an active person), but when I re-frame boredom as a desire for stimulation, I can totally relate to that.
When socializing with people who are drinking, sometimes I am jealous that others "get" to feel that elevated buzz. Obviously I know the science behind drinking now, so I don't take action on this feeling, but it has caught me by surprise — that I want to feel "more" than what is available in the present moment. Why is that, and how can I respond to that impulse in a healthy way?
We are living in an interesting (unprecedented) time, where distraction is so readily available to us. It makes me want to try to avoid reaching for my phone whenever I am bored. I want to find a healthier form of stimulation!
I like the suggestion to practice a new skill in order to combat boredom in a healthy way. As it just so happens, I have been playing my musical instrument and studying French in the evenings. Whenever I engage in these activities, I always feel better afterwards (if I'm in a bad mood starting out) or more content (if I'm doing fine).
I also love the (scientifically-proven) idea that creative parts of the brain become more active when you are bored. Many valuable contributions to art, music, literature and science were born out of boredom. That must be why all my best ideas happen in the shower!
In today's lesson on The Path, we were asked to remember that boredom has a purpose. We should not try to run away from it! We can use those moments of boredom to reflect on our lives and to dream, and then we can turn our attention to activities that help us to grow!
Next time I am bored I will try to sit with the feeling first, before trying a new activity (not my phone). Observing my feelings and getting still would be novel reactions to boredom for me. I still do not sit with my emotions very well, and this makes me more reactive than I want to be. This is something I want to work on in my life.
AF Days Since May 23, 2024: 39
My Why: To have freedom from addictions, to create more space in my life, to honor my body / mind / spirit, to feel vibrant and empowered in my daily life, and to make my corner of the world a better, more peaceful, more loving & more beautiful place.
What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink?
I enjoyed dinner on the patio — steak kabobs and a sun-dried tomato salad — without feeling deprived because I had Alcohol-Free red wine and it even paired well with chocolate at dessert! 😋
Daily Affirmations:
1) I choose to live Alcohol-Free.
2) I respect and honor myself.
3) I am worthy of love and care.
4) I give myself patience to heal.
5) I maintain healthy boundaries.
6) I have compassion for others.
7) I create beauty all around me.
