Day 8: April 8, 2024
What are My Thoughts Today?
Day 7 complete! I sincerely can't remember the last time I started a Monday without feeling zapped from alcohol. I still don't feel totally great otherwise. Anxious more than usual and my sleep schedule, although I'm sleeping well, is still way too late because I've gotten accustomed to that. I'd like to start getting up earlier and going to bed earlier! This morning when I woke up I had the realization that there's no reason that I ever have to be hungover again. Being so alert and aware at every moment of the day feels a little scary, but also kind of adventurous. I don't think I realized how much I used alcohol to give myself permission to be "done" working for the day and to check out. It's so weird not to have the check-out option at my disposal! Not necessarily in a bad way... I am just realizing I will need to think of other, healthier methods to feel totally relaxed.
Today I felt a little anxious but it came and went. No regrets about being alcohol free though! That's been nice. My anxiety is more specifically health-anxiety, which is a familiar voice in my mental arena. I need to remind myself that my body and mind need time to heal. I want to give myself patience and to feel better and compassion as I unlearn old behaviors and rewire new ones in my mind.
Drinks since April 1st: 0
My Why: My why is I want to feel as healthy as I can, and aware of the wonders of creation as possible... It's hard to do this if I am drinking! And I don't want to waste mental energy on controlling drinking or dealing with the aftermath of fatigue and anxiety.
What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink? My husband and I both stayed awake and alert when we watched our favorite TV show together (instead of falling asleep on the couch, haha).
Daily Affirmations:
1) I choose to live alcohol-free.
2) I respect and honor myself.
3) I am worthy of love and care.
4) I give myself patience to heal.
5) I have compassion for others.
6) I create beauty all around me.
