Day 43: May 13, 2024
What are My Thoughts Today?
I embody the traits commonly affiliated with having an addictive personality. In the past I have also blamed my ADHD-like tendencies on my propensity towards addictive behaviors. I still think that's true to an extent (yes, I think they are contributing factors), but I'm willing to admit that these traits don't have to result in addiction. However, my subconscious beliefs around alcohol need to align with reality for me to want to take action.
For example, when I wasn't honestly onboard with the idea that alcohol is a drug (hence truly bad for you and to be consumed with the utmost caution, if at all), then no amount of willpower was going to keep me from drinking. It's only now that I have been reevaluating my thoughts around alcohol that I've been making some different choices in the last 40+ days, without that white-knuckle feeling.
I'll admit that my beliefs about alcohol are not 100% in alignment with what The Path teaches, but I think that's why this program is a year. If I can reprogram my thinking around alcohol, then the personality traits I have always considered to be the result of an addictive personality will actually help me to refrain from drinking without pain or regret! I like to be a free-thinker / non-conformist, so I don't think I will be worried about fitting in, honestly. I just have to get my head around the truth that alcohol is truly harmful first and then the rest will finally fall into place.
Total Number of Drinks since April 1st: 3
My Why: To live a life I am proud of and to use my time wisely.
What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink? I was able to be fully present with my nephews and alert during our game night.
Daily Affirmations:
1) I enjoy freedom from alcohol.
2) I choose to live mindfully.
3) I respect and honor myself.
4) I am worthy of love and care.
5) I give myself patience to heal.
6) I have compassion for others.
7) I create beauty all around me.
