Day 42: May 12, 2024
What are My Thoughts Today?
I think the biggest "aha" moment this week is realizing how basically EVERYTHING that causes me stress is made worse from being stuck in how I look at it, being unable to consider that maybe there's evidence that another way is better. For example, it's clear that drinking causes stress but if I cling to the false idea that it makes me happy, I will never allow myself to learn a better way to cope with stress.
This same thinking applies to habitual over-commitment, high expectations, or even the pursuit of complete happiness. I have to stop and evaluate: is what I am aiming for even a realistic outcome? If I can admit that booze will never make me happy, maybe I can also admit that I will never be relaxed if I insist on scheduling myself to the gills. These ideas still feel somewhat half-baked to me, meaning I have to think about them more, but I feel like this liminal thinking stuff is gonna give way to many breakthroughs!
Total Number of Drinks since April 1st: 3
My Why: To feel a deep sense of peace that won't come from drinking or addiction.
What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink? I had a GENUINELY super fun night with nary a drop of alcohol!
Daily Affirmations:
1) I enjoy freedom from alcohol.
2) I choose to live mindfully.
3) I respect and honor myself.
4) I am worthy of love and care.
5) I give myself patience to heal.
6) I have compassion for others.
7) I create beauty all around me.
