Day 25: April 25, 2024
What are My Thoughts Today?
The first warning sign my body gave me, very early in my journey with alcohol, is that I was most often the "puke and rally" girl. 🤮 Not hot! But I did it a lot because I was petite. I can't believe I didn't take it more seriously, but I guess I'm not surprised based on College culture. I laughed it off.
As the years progressed, I didn't have a lot of active warning signs (aside from bad sleep) until more recently. I would have heart palpitations sometimes, I think mostly due to dehydration after drinking, and the worst was that I would have an elevated heart rate for 3 to 4 hours after more than one drink, which was most times I had alcohol. It got so unpleasant that I wondered if drinking was worth it anymore. It's one of the reasons I started searching out options like The Path.
The final straw was getting blood work back in early February. My vitamin B was low, which is usually caused by alcohol use disorder in otherwise healthy individuals. That was a big warning sign. Other symptoms went away on the days I didn't drink, so I rationalized that if I just drank less often I would be okay. But once I started getting into messed up blood work, that meant my body might start to develop even bigger problems later on if I don't deal with it.
Anyway, the human body is pretty fabulous, but I am not great at listening to it right now. I often stuff down uncomfortable feelings because I hate confrontation, not just with alcohol but with avoidance. This leads to a lot of stress. I look forward to dealing with my aversion to hard conversations this year on The Path. ✌🏻
Drinks since April 1st: 0
My Why: To build up my ability to self-regulate, self reflect & take care of myself!
What's One Awesome Thing that Happened Yesterday because I Chose Not to Drink? I enjoyed inventing a new AF cocktail last night, with no health consequences!
Daily Affirmations:
1) I choose to live Alcohol-Free.
2) I respect and honor myself.
3) I am worthy of love and care.
4) I give myself patience to heal.
5) I have compassion for others.
6) I create beauty all around me.
